LOST???

Assalamulaikum,,,,

Actually not in mood to write today. But just because i can't shut my eyes yet, so i need to find something to do. Anyhow, i choose to update my blog because I'm getting bored with facebook and twitter also... merapu2 kat sana bayak2 karang orang menyampah pulak.

These few days, I've been received lots of shocking news. 1st, after went back from workshop at Teluk Gorek, i was informed that my grandma is no longger with us. She's left us already. That's been quite a bit blow to me as I just went back from Mersing, which it's location is only 3 hours to my grandma house. Plus, i felt a bit regret because I wasn't able to took care of her for a long time when she was sick before. I felt like an useless granddaughter. But, I keep telling myself that it's okay. That she understand why i can't go and meet her often. And I hope that, she know that I love her eventhough we don't understand each other language. Eventhough I only able to took care of her for 2 days when she was on her sickbed, I hope that it's enough to show that I love her. That I really2 love her. Maybe you'll think that I'm mushy little fellow, but loosing someone as if our grandma is a big thing, eventhough we are not really close. After all, she's part of me. She'll be part of me forever. So, it's terrifying for me for loosing someone that we hope we can take a good care of her someday when we are able too. It's irritating all this while that I can't understand what she's talking to me because i din't learn the language. And for those things i can't do, i regret a lot. But, I have to be strong, be tough,, get over this, and cherish my life, pray the best for her, b a better person. FROM ALLAH WE CAME,, AND UNTO HIM WE RETURN. Mati itu pasti.

Then, last Friday, my room-mate granny also get sick. So, sudden. I don't know how to console her as I've been trough the same thing only once. I just only look at her, and said be patience. I don't know what else to say.

Third, my bestfriend mum is gravely ill. I also don't know how to console her. But I wish I'd be there for her. I want to see her and make sure that she's ok. That she's alright and she's in perfect condition, that she's not doing anything stupid. Me myself know how painful she'll be right now. Because watching someone dying is hurt,,, plus! That's her own mother that is sick. I know that feeling. I hope u could be strong no matter what happen. I'll be there for you, always.

And lastly, the death of my classmate grandpa. I keep wondering why people around me kept loosing their loves one, maybe it's a test for them, and for me too... so that, i learn that, death is a sure thing. that we're not long in this world.

And that's all I'm able to say, for now. Need to do my assignment as my eyes don't wanna to shutdown yet. So, good night people and take a good care of yourself.

Wassalam.

HOW and HOW!

Assalamualaikum!

Dah lama sangat tak update blog ni. Maklumlah, lappy buat perangai. Esok baru nak beli lappy baru. hahahahahaha. Aq sebenarnya sayang sangat dengan aspire one ni, tapi salah sendiri jugak tumpahkan megi kat atas lappy. Yelah, kemalangan, inevitable accident orang kata. Dah takdir, redha jelah.

Hmm,,, dah banyak rasanya aku terlepas/ketinggalan dengan alam blog ni. Rasa macam jakun pulak, hilang terus idea apa nak update blog. ahahahahhahha.

Still, dalam banyak2 benda yang akan berubah (yeah, exited nak beli lappy baru esok) aku still lagi tak berubah. hahahaha,, sama macam dulu... yeke???? hahaha,,, takdelah, mestilah aku pon berubah sama. kan masa dah berlalu. dan antara banyak2 perubahan yang berlaku, aku masih tak berubah dalam satu hal. satu hal je. iaitu, kalau aku tak suka, maknanya, aku tak suka,,, dan aku tak akan suka. like now, aku dah ada 1 barang warna pink. backpack aku. warnanya pink, hehehehehe,,,

Syafika Sahabudin punye koje,,, suh aku beli beg ni. yelah, even aku tak suka colour dia,,, tapi aku suka design dia. 

macam tu jugak dengan sekarang ni. memang aku tak suka to be in relationship. bagi aku la, ikot suka hati korang la. sebab macam yang Ked cakap, the definite ending is marriage.... so do i, therefore, i dont do relationship. nak kata kuno orthodoks ke hape ke.. suka hati jugak. terpulang.

sebab itu prinsip aku. tak kisah la korang tengok aku ni suka/admire ramai orang. tapi, tak pernah terlintas niat dalam hati aku, ramai2 mamat yang aq usah tu aku nak jadikan couple. tak pernah, kalau aku cakap nak kawen adalah. gatal gila meroyan pa entah cakap benda ni, tapi betullah, tak kisah korang nak fikir apa, sekali lagi sebab otak masing2.

dan sekarang ni, aku tak berniat untuk cari sesape, aku nak berkawan je dengan semua orang. lelaki or perempuan, semua aku treat sama aje. xde lebih, xde kurang. tapi perangai gatal miang suka usha mamat2 hensem tu memang aku tak boleh nak buang lagi. 

KALAU NAK SURUH AKU USHA, MUKA MESTI LA MACAM NI.

SO, sori lah kalau nak suruh aku berhenti buat benda miang tu. hahahahha, so, the conclusion is, jangan kacau aku. jangan cuba nak jadi matchmaker ke, nk jadi BF aku ke,,, jangan,,, jangan berani try,, sebab aku tak suka, bila aku tak suka,,,, i'll treat/handle things badly. percayalah,, sengsara hidup korang. don't annoy me, 

SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH.